Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Baking While Blocked

The eternal question of a writer is how to cope with writer’s block. Do you let it take its course, and fill your life with other activities or artistic pursuits? Or is it better to continue to stare at that screen every day for your allotted two hours, hoping that determination and persistence will reward you with the return of creative inspiration?

The truth is, I don’t have an answer to this question. I’ve read plenty of essays and heard a lot of advice about the topic. All of these wise and experienced well-wishers are very likely telling me the truth about what works for them. The challenge is that it doesn’t seem to work for me, or at least, not all of the time.

As a result, I have taken to dealing with writer’s block in a different way every time, hoping to find my personal cure. These various attempts have not lead to more writing or a shortened period of writer’s block yet, but I have learned more about the world external to the written word. In short, writer’s block has turned into an adventure of sorts for me.

This week’s adventure was a culinary one. I have read that writers find themselves in bread dough and saucepans of melted chocolate. Over the course of the last week I have made three pans of dessert, two loaves of bread, a stir fry with caramelized chicken, and baked, breaded drum sticks. For someone who considers a cheese sandwich a satisfying dinner, this is a ridiculous amount of baking. It is amazing how much time I have when I’m not writing. When I devote my two hours a day when I normally write to something else, it becomes clear just how much one can accomplish in that amount of time. If I ever manage to be as productive as a writer as I am as a baker, I might actually finish something someday.

I have come to the conclusion that I actually enjoy cooking. While mixing the batter for my third dessert (whiskey brownies), I reached that peaceful elation I sometimes feel during a long walk or while folding laundry. It is that indefinable satisfaction that comes from a mechanical action so automatic that it frees your mind.

As my second week of writers block drags on, I understand why cooking relieves writer’s block for some. However, it doesn’t seem to be working for me. This is unfortunate, but I can’t help but feel that my exploration into baking has left me with a lasting fondness for cooking that will serve me well. After all, if I hope to be a mother someday, should I not learn how to feed myself before I become responsible for feeding my children?

In the end, the experience makes me think of a conversation I had with Stephanie Horlacher the other night, when we discussed how our different artistic expressions help us be better people. She is an actress, and has come to the realization that in order to take on any role, she must empathize with her character. This forces her to try to understand a myriad of different personalities. I would like to postulate that it is the methods that we resort to in order to accomplish art that lead us to explore aspects of the world and other people we wouldn’t normally traverse. For this reason, art will always challenge us and improve us through the nontraditional education of curiosity. This is why, if I could go back and choose between a week of artistic productivity, and a week of artistic frustration that came with a new love for cooking, I would choose the latter.

Thus ends another week as a writer ends, while the next begins.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

First Rejection Letter

I submitted the first ten pages of Chalk to a literary development company named "Paper Lantern Lit." Based on what I have read (from sources external to their website), they seem to be a great company for writers who are just beginning their careers. Yesterday I got a form rejection e-mail from them. Here it is:

Subject: Your Submission

Thank you so much for your interest in Paper Lantern Lit! Your work stood out among our other submissions, but unfortunately we don’t see a fit for any of our projects at this time. We think your work has merit and potential, and urge you to keep writing.

Best of luck,
The Editorial Staff
Paper Lantern Lit

As my first form rejection, it was very polite, maybe even kind. The people at Paper Lantern Lit clearly know what it is like to be rejected, and have written their form rejection accordingly. I'm extremely grateful for this. After all, it always hurts the most the first time, right?

I'm proud to report that last night I stayed the course. I wrote my daily two hours, spending most of the time on a new beginning to my Untitled novel. I'm okay. I'm moving on. And it's not in spite of Paper Lantern Lit. They gave me their time and consideration. I appreciate that. I wish them success in their endeavors. I returned to my writing desk yesterday because someday I hope to be worthy of getting an entire novel published. Maybe I'm not today, and that's okay. After all, art is a journey, and I have just taken another step.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Untitled

I have begun writing a new novel that does not have a title yet. It is the story of Tana, who has been born to the life of a Diviner. She can see the future when she flips over the cards of her tarot deck, but she has come to an impasse. Her mother and the other Diviners get much of their power from sexual energy, and Tana cannot find any desire within herself to take a lover the way her mother has done.

After a painful sexual experiment with a boy from her hometown, Tana runs away to work in boutique far away from home. It is there that she meets a girl named Rachel with a wily sense of a humor and a smile that, much to Tana's surprise, makes her heart race.

Working on this novel has been fascinating, exhilarating, and sometimes heart wrenching. Dear friends and other writers have agreed to read it and have offered help and feedback that has made my daily grind much easier and productive. I have ventured on the daunting task of researching the reactions of other women who have had similar emotional experiences to those I write about in this novel. The women who have agreed to talk to me have shared such deeply personal and difficult memories with me. I am continually in awe of their bravery.

Every day this project reminds me of why I identify myself as a writer. I love this story and I love working on it. I hope that I will be able to finish it and maintain the same perspective. I think writing is such a journey, and moving on to another project is extremely affirming and interesting for me.

The most pressing part of this project as of late is to think up a title. Wish me luck.